Welcome to my Blog! For the next year I will be writing my about my thoughts and life as I embark on my journey to Kenya. I will try my best to make it grammatically correct but I make no promises. To start off my blog I will just write a bit about what it feels like to be exactly 3 weeks away from my leave date.
To say that I am stressed would be a big understatement. When I began this journey almost a year ago, all I thought about was what a great opportunity it was to show the world how amazing God's love for us is. Currently all I can think about is how much I have to do and the fear of moving to a new place. Don't get me wrong I am very, very excited to go but the reality of it all is definitely here and leaving NOLA is definitely something I am not ready to do.
So I looked up the word fear in the dictionary and this is what I found:
1. Feeling of anxiety: an unpleasant feeling of anxiety or apprehension caused by the presence or anticipation of danger
2. Frightening thought: an idea, thought, or other entity that causes feelings of fear
Yep those both describe it about right!
Two Sundays ago I attended church at Metairie Ridge Presbyterian. When I sat in the pew, I looked into the bulletin and saw the sermon title was "Don't Worry". Given my current state of being all I could do was laugh a little and just continued to read the rest of the bulletin. While I was a bit skeptical of the title of the sermon, it actually quite inspired/reminded me of my greater purpose. The verse, which I will share with you was Matthew 6:25 - 35. "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 28 And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
After hearing these words read out loud to me, all I could think was, " Wow! God you sure know when I need you the most!". How amazing is verse 34"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." How often I forget to just put it in God's hands.
Today I am not going to worry about tomorrows troubles. I need to remember that there is another definition for fear 3. reverence: respect or awe for somebody or something. This is the fear I will have from here on out. The fear of the Lord.
